Realizing My Limitations
Every now and then I get ideas - big, lofty, ambitious ideas. Unfortunately, my mama instilled in me an inherent (and apparently false) belief that if I put my mind to it, I can learn and do anything.
After a week of pure torture, in which I pretty much gave up on everything except twitter, I've come to the conclusion that I have no head for web designing. I do not have the stomach for the hair pulling frustration that comes after trying something for four hours and continuously screwing it up with no idea as to what I'm doing wrong.
I have also swallowed the bitter pill and accepted that as far as designing goes - I have no imagination. Give me words and I can spin a tale that have put my youngest sibling to sleep many a nights but hand me a designing software and I can't even design myself a blog header.
The urge to list all the things I've tried to master (and failed at) over the years is strong. But there's only so much butchering I can do of my own esteem. Hence, I'm going off to mope in a corner for a while.
Ever gone through a time when you want to learn something so much (!) yet you have no talent for it? Please tell me you have and share it with me and help make me feel a little less dumb.
Update: You didn't think I'd give up so easily did you? A good night's sleep restored my faith in my abilities. I may lack imagination but it's not something that I can't overcome. I'll learn enough to satisfactorily design a little for my own projects. I've set aside 5 hours every Tuesday to work on it. It will take me time, but I will learn and make that blog header I've been meaning to.
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February 18, 2009 at 1:21 PM
yep- def have stories like that e.g. I have never been able to do circuits. I could understand quantum physics or how a nuclear reactor works but couldn't do the basic freshman 101 circuits class. Just couldn't wrap my brain around that one no matter how hard I tried, even in grad school. Music is another example. No matter how much I practiced, my fingers just don't work right on a piano keyboard. It's a humbling experience to realize that aptitude/talent are real, and sheer hard work is not sufficient to make up for it!
But you know, lack of talent never stopped me from doing anything :-)
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